Im sorry guys...I've been dealing with a ton of stuff...and I havent posted to my own journal...yet I'll post to my RP's...lmao XD TTYL!!

Im have been so busy lately!! I have found out Im failing 2 classes and its hard to get them back up. Also I've been fighting with Rj alot so I'm tired. So yeah, Im going to the beach tuesday-thursday with Tomoyo-chan (Siana). Then I have to paint my room...>< well that sabout it. TTYL

Ok so i just got back from AVID study hall. Now Im bored and no one is online. lol Well nothing has really gone one much. Im still passing my classes...Michiru is turning 16 tomorrow. My japanese teacher gave me a huge ass assignment! and it sux. My journalsim teach gave us a report to do and I think I'll blow it off...lol Rj and I are 5 months strong...I look forward to 6 lol. The school talent show is tomorrow night at 7 so I wont be on then...oh! Note to self: Bug 'rents for $3 lol...thats about it...like I said not interesting.

Random update...Lots of boredom, not enough time to type, no on eelse posts anymore...

Im back but I wont update....I have no time anymore...

Ok so, I'm leaving for awhile...longer lol...Im having to vacate meh house. But yes, I find out about that contest on the 15 or 16th so its cool. Thats about it...

Oh...and Valentines day...can got fuck a duck...

I failed my Geometry class for this semester so I might have to do summer school! T_T What the hell?! *Cries* Also, our new Japanese teacher, Hieggelke-sensei, is weird. I miss Miyake-sensei!! *Cries more* The only good thing is I get to spend time with Rj this weekend...but who knows. THAT could be subject to change as well...

Ok Im bored. Im supposed to hang out with Mikey and Sarah but they are still sleeping. I have to clean my room before I can go anyways...Its really messy. lol I borrowed a game from Lauren yesterday. Inuyasha: Secret of the Cursed Mask. Its pretty good. I watched her play alot. I wish I could play it but mom and dad are watching tv and I cant take the PS2 into my room. *Rolls eyes* So here I am on the comp when I have plenty of chores to do lol. I have to go and answer the phone bye

Yeah well Lauren has her violin lesson before i go home and as soon as I do...I'll be bored again. So I think I'll see if Colleen can come over...or maybe Yuki and Temari or Rae...maybe Livi...lol

SUCCESS!! AND IM SURE I PASSED THEM ALL TOO!!! *Mumbles and pulls meh cheek* well maybe not my Geometry...*Gets hyper again* WHO GIVES A DAMN ABOUT GEOMETRY ANYWAYS?!?! NOW I MUST FIND SOMETHING TO DO SO MY WEEKEND ISN'T TOTALLY BORING!!! XD

I had my science final today and I think I passed but I am gonna fail Geometry tomorrow I just know it...

yup thats what it was. Slow as hell...

I entered a poetry contest on Poetry.com...I won!!! I get my poem published in a book! Also Im entered in another on e as a semi-finalist! I can win up to $1000!!! ^///^ Im sooooo happy!

Tuesday I start finals. I probably wont get on but if I do my entries will be short. Here is my finals schedule:

Tues. Periods 1-2
Wed. Periods 5-6
Thurs. Periods 3-4
Fri. Periods 7-8

So thats that! TTYL!! Im off to celebrate meh victory!!

Ok so Im over at meh friend Carey's and I have shtole his computher!! MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!! lmao I know! Yeah Carey wuvs meh! We are bestest friends lol. Well I have to go home and go to bed soon cuz I have to get up at 5. Im going to teh portland expo center for a dog show...>< Im going to spend time with him lol. Ok so Im gonna go.

My mom forgot to tell meh I had an appointment!! It sucks too becuz i had to get shots. They new Human papaloma Vaccine and a booster. So Im pretty happy cuz I got to see meh friends and Rj today, even for a lil while. So now I ish talking to him on IM cuz I ish bored. I thought that by now HE would have PLENTY of time to reply to my message...lol

Ok so Im at the library and this kidd I know named Eugene comes up to me. NOw this kidd has a huge crush on me and no matter what I tell him he wont leave me alone. So he tells me hi and stuff, and me being nice say hi back. Well he tells me he's got a secret to tell me and I say ok, so he tells me to bend down and I kinda have to cuz he's uber short. So I bend over and he kisses me. Im like ">< EWWW!" in my mind reight, cuz I have a boyfriend. Well I tell him that and he says that he'd like to take him on, fight for me. well even if he won I wouldn't date him cuz I dont like him. So he keeps coming back! I told him a total of 4 times "Stop kissing me, I don't like it!" And every single fucking time, he kissed me!! ARGH! I HATE IT AND I HATE HIM!! SOMEBODY GO GET ME SOME HOLY WATER OR SOMETHING!!

And it sucked! ^^ I was BORED THE WHOLE DAMN DAY!! *Rages* *Calms* ^^;; Colleen came over at like 3 and we watched Azumanga Daioh for hours! lol I really am like Yomi! Colleen is a combo of Sakaki and Tomo with a dash of Kagura! OH OH OH! I DRIVE LIKE MISS. YUKARI!! ..............yes that is scary...I know this...lol but its ok. I still dont know when mom is going to take me for my permit either...I wanna go soon though just cuz I can and I want to get my licsence when I turn 16 in december! ^^ Ok well I suppose that's all for now...

Wait! NOPE I REMEMBERED SOMETHING! A special someone is talking to me again...it makes me happy because I was slightly depressed about it. But, Im not telling who it is...*Singsong voice* Porinky porinky not gonna tell!

TTFN ~Kat

And it sucked! ^^ I was BORED THE WHOLE DAMN DAY!! *Rages* *Calms* ^^;; Colleen came over at like 3 and we watched Azumanga Daioh for hours! lol I really am like Yomi! Colleen is a combo of Sakaki and Tomo with a dash of Kagura! OH OH OH! I DRIVE LIKE MISS. YUKARI!! ..............yes that is scary...I know this...lol but its ok. I still dont know when mom is going to take me for my permit either...I wanna go soon though just cuz I can and I want to get my licsence when I turn 16 in december! ^^ Ok well I suppose that's all for now...

Wait! NOPE I REMEMBERED SOMETHING! A special someone is talking to me again...it makes me happy because I was slightly depressed about it. But, Im not telling who it is...*Singsong voice* Porinky porinky not gonna tell!

TTFN ~Kat

Ok I need to spill the beans! Im writing a new book! Also I am studying almost non-stop and I have been getting more sleep! On another note, Im excited because Temari is talking to me again! Temari is a friend of mine but we haven't talked in forever. I thought she hated me but we talked some tonight. If only SOMEONE talked to me, I'd be in an even better mood. lmao Yeah Im in a super good mood. Thats a first cuz I haven't been in a good mood for weeks! ^ ^ I need to go now but I will post again soon!

A weird thought occurred to me...despite loosing my grandpa...Christmas rocked...>< Isnt that weird? I got cool stuff...people were happy...it was strange. Then all through out the week i had fun...Isnt that twisted?

I found out that my great grandfather died...on my birthday. I knew it was going to suck. Christmas is a gloomy holiday indeed.

I decided...Im going to return to Wicca. My mom got scared and made me quit before. threatened to throw me out that she did. So I had to stop...but I don't want to talk about Wicca on here...thats a private matter. Tomorrows the day of my birth...oh how joyful...hardly.

God, how I wish I was either still in school, with Rj, with friends or dead. I knew the holidays were going to suck...they always do. but this year they are going to suck thrice as bad as usual. 1)I always fight with my family cuz i hate them and I'd rather be anywhere but home. 2)My grandpa died earlier this year and we were born on the same day, so my family will be in mourning on my birthday...which is this saturday I might add. 3)Im trying to prevent a relapse sooo bad. Rj is proud of my 3 months and so am I but lately its been getting harder with the holidays and rising tension. I've had to call my boyfriend more than I normally do to have him talk me out of doing something that will ultimatly hurt the both of us. So yeah...I hate winter break with a passion. Plus, my ex...oh how I hate using that word...hates me. Now unlike most ppl, when I ask, "Can we still be friends and hang out?" I mean it, I DO still want to be friends. But as it seems, he hates me. But a small part of me expected that.

So yeah, Im over at my grandma's and as usual, we're fighting. We do that alot. Its sad really cuz I do love her, but I cant help it if I dont like how she tells me Im stupid and worthless. Granted, I am stupid and worthless...but I dont need to hear it. To top it off, I have to sleep in the same room as a crying 18 month baby. Not that I dont love my little cousin, cuz he's so damn cute, but he also will not shut up. Thankfully, tomorrow I get to go home, which is somewhat better than here, so I can see whether I can spend time with Rj, cuz yeah. Than i got to hook up with meh gang of anime-loving pals so I can give them their christmas cards...which dont mean much cuz half of them are Wiccan.

I've been thinking about that too...Should I even get involved? A few weeks ago, I told my mom I was going to go and hang out with my friend Justin, but in all actuallity, he invited me to make a circle with him and some other friends of his from his school. When I was there, I felt...different. I can't explain it but, I liked it. I wanna call him back and ask when he's going to do another one so I can go too, but maybe I shouldn't. I dunno if I should get involved, but it sounds strangly normal to me. Maybe I'm still in a state where I dont know what I want...naw I think that I am past that stage...I am...aren't I?

So, here's how it works:
1. Open your library (iTunes, Winamp, Media Player, iPod, etc)
2. Put it on shuffle
3. Press play
4. For every question, type the song that's playing
5. When you go to a new question, press the next button
6. Don't lie and try to pretend you're cool...

Opening Credits: We're Not Gonna Take It~Twisted Sister
Waking Up: You & Me~Lifehouse
Partying: Move Along~All American Rejects
First Day At School: Nobody's Home~Avril Lavinge
Leaving School: Whats My Age Again?~Blink-182
Falling In Love: Listen To Your Heart~D.H.T.
Breaking Up: Forsaken~Disturbed
Prom: The Real Slim Shady~Eminem ((WTH?? ^O^))
Life: May It Be~Enya
Mental Breakdown: Call Me When You're Sober~Evanescence
Driving: Real Emotion~FFX-2 XDD
Flashback: Where'd Ya Go~Fort Minor
Wedding: Let Me Love You~Mario
Birth of Child: Mortal Kombat Theme ((LMAO!! XDD THATS FUNNY!))
Growing Old: Far Away~Nickleback
Final Battle: The Only Difference Between Matyrdom & Suicide Is Press Coverage~Panic!At The Disco
Death Scene: Scars~Papa Roach
Funeral Song: Welcome To My Life~Simple Plan
End Credit: Headstrong~Trapt

Yup sooooo excited! I went shopping last night & couldnt find anything that made me look okay....;_; so sad! But yeah Im going to go pick up meh date later after we go shoping again...XDDDD

I havent got much sleep withing the past 3 days because of meh kick ass party...*Grins sheepishly* We had fun. There was lots of laughing, yelling, raping...>.>...<.<...XD I DIDNT SAY THAT!!!! lmao anyways yeah...

*Singsong voice* Todays the day!!! Yup ppls are gonna be here after 2...and I have a shit load of stuff to do!!! *Paincs and flings stuff around* OMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMG!!! I HAVE TO CLEAN!!! WRITE A PAPER!!! GO TO MY SCHOOL ON A DAY OFF AND TURN IT IN!!! O_O I HAVE SOOOOOO MUCH TO DO! Gotta go! Ciao!

My birthday party! I cant wait! All my friends are coming!! Except Tatsu and that makes me sad but I'll see her soon so its ok! ^^ I cant wait to see everyone and eat some sweetsnow!!

My birthday party is coming up...yup...I cant wait...cant you tell??

My mom just came and showed me the check that was going to send me to Japan with the P.2.P.A.P. and said that they couldn't send me! I was so upset but I couldnt cry. I couldn't cry because Brandon was there and I dont cry in front of friends. But Im crying now. They promised me I could go! The whole family was going to send us money to get me to go! I was looking forward to it...now I cant go. Im so empty right now... heh I sound emo...

*Groans* My head hurts soo bad...I also miss my Rj...;_; *cries* And the movie I wanna see I cant...now I HAVE TO WAIT! DAMNIT! *Settles down* Plus...I have to go to ze library but its raining...and Im cold...Colleens over but we are both bored as we cannot leave...so we wait.

Neal & Emily got laid off...Colleen isn't talking to me...Colleen's been having lots of problems...Shawna Palmer is gonna get her ass kicked! SERIOUSLY! SHE JUST NEEDS TO SHUT THE FUCK UP ABOUT SHIT THAT SHE DOESN'T KNOW ABOUT!!!!

the last time I posted...I was one piece of fucked up female...but now I feel much better. Well...sorta lmao. I have a new kind of medication...name with held...and its helping me lots...^^ So...While I still kinda feel like shit, I am slowly healing. Yay me...also...I HAVE SUCCEEDED IN KICKING YUNALESCA'S DEAD MAGICAL ASS!!! Yay me...squared... ^^

I THOUGHT I WAS MAKING THINGS BETTER! I THOUGHT I COULDN'T HURT HIM ANYMORE! I THOUGHT I COULD MAKE IT SO HE WOULDN'T HAVE TO LIE FOR ME! I THOUGHT I COULD SAVE HIM FROM THIS! BUT I JUST MADE IT WORSE! I did...I thought I could...but I just fucked it up...

Well...I hurt him...in the worst way possible...I wouldn't be suprised if he hated me...I just...he started feeling like family...but thats besides the point. I hated how he had to lie about me. He had to lie about me being bi, he had to lie about me being a cutter, he had to pretend about Ash. Because of me he had to lie to his mother...and his father...and all of his friends...he had to lie to everyone. Just because we were together. That was always on my mind. Now he doesn't have to lie anymore...he wont ever have to lie about me ever again. Hopefully we can still be friends...I hope so...

I was so hyper last night! I got to have my best friend, Lauren, come over! Today her gramma is taking us to the pumpkin patch! IM GONNA LOOK FOR THE GREAT PUMPKIN! >.> <.< Im kidding of course...I mean honestly who believes in the Great Pumpkin in this day an age. *Laughs nervously* XD ok well Im gonna go. ttyl

They don't know how I feel,
They don't care...
They have no idea how I think,
They have a problem with ppl like me.

I had a dream last night...
I woke up crying...
But its not important...
Nobody cares anyways...

I just got over puking meh guts out on monday! @_@ It was gross...I stayed through school though cuz I couldn't afford ta miss it! But believe me! As soon as I got home that bathroom was MINE! Yup lmao Nothing to report other than Im better lol Ciao!

Ok so Homecoming was freaking shweet! *Does a dance* My feet hurt so bad afterward cuz I danced for 2 of the 3 hours! ^^ It was fun. Then I came home and slept! lol Today was my dads 35th birthday! We went to the Malibu Racetracks and rode Go-Karts! I kicked ass! Yup then we went to Applebees. After I got home I hung out, bored for awhile before Derek came over and we went to go see The Guardian. Im my opinion it sucked butt. lol But thats what I thought. Yeah, I got pics from homecoming and stuff but I have to put them on photobucket. lol...Well thats all to report other than I think Im getting sick. O-o TTYL!